So now she knows

I told Bonnie about the blog, and she didn't seem too receptive; though I should have seen that coming. I thought it was worth a try though. I seriously doubt she'll start posting on here, but I hope she does. I don't plan to ever talk to her about what is written here. I just informed her that it was here, and that I hope she uses it.
She probably is grossed out with the idea of having sex, but everybody does get horny. And tonight she told me that she does, and when I asked her how she takes care of it, she mentioned a vibrator. Its funny because I bought her one once, but then we hit a bad spot and so I threw it out. It was a good one too, a Rabbit.
Its of course kinda hot to here that she can give herself orgasms now because she use to not be able to. Add to that, some guy was giving her orgasms from fingering her. Foreplay was never something she liked doing with me, just the sex. I dont know if I could give her one by fingering or oral, but I wish I could try. It bothers me that some random guy could, and I couldnt. Maybe I'm not that good in bed after all.
I remember when she told me about getting fingered and how she actually liked it now. She was getting off work and getting into the Jeep to go somewhere, but she had to change first. I was so hard as she described pulling her pants off and slipping into a pair of sexy thongs. Next was her top as she described being bare chested momentarily. She said she was on her way to get her sister to go out, but I think she was seeing someone else. I also wonder about who this mystery guy was. I have 3 thoughts. 1, it was this hot co-worker she told me about. A womanizer she said she would never date because all he wants to do is have sex. 2, a random hook up from a casual encounters add off of Craigslist. I imagine her sitting at home on the computer perusing replies she received, or searching the posts from area guys. 3, one of her sister's friends, but I doubt this one because they would all be younger than her and I dont recall her sister having too many friends especially guys to begin with.
So now I know this random guy wasnt just a one time thing and she frequently fooled around with him. I wonder if she did go all the way with him, and how good he was. I wonder if she has had better sex than me since leaving.
My sex life? ha, thats a good one. I wish I had a close girl I liked enough to have sex with, and was at least half as hot as Bonnie and maybe a tenth as sexual. Why I dont sleep with just any girl? Because I never call them again, and I feel guilty, and then I realize the sex wasnt even that good. So for now I masterbate. I stopped for quite sometime but I cant help it now. I guess I dont feel as bad now that I know Bonnie is using a vibrator on herself. I couldnt even fathom how hot it would be to watch her orgasm from a vibrator. Its a side of her I dont know.